degrees just gave it to lunch. I had to eat and then came this Binge Eating and I had to throw up, automatically. Now my stomach is empty, and so is my whole being empty. Thus, this pressure and the fear away. Now is the feeling for a few hours back. When the stomach is filled with water and tea. I know That was wrong. I will now still continue to try not to puke. Even if I was to hurt me for it. I have to do it anyway. I have to hate this vacuum. But I can not. If my stomach is empty, then I'm different. I hate it even more, but I find beautiful, because I did not deserve better. Sometimes I sit in my room on the floor and look in the mirror. I know that I perceive myself blankly and realized, what I have just done again. Then I make the music loud so it touches me. Somewhere. But that does nicht.Ich'm starting to cry, because I myself do not feel it. Because in those moments I'm feeling empty and scared of myself. I must try to feel me, through cuts, because I had nothing else.
requires Lately everyone I'm perfect. I am here for everyone. I am getting better at school again. I take that into consideration and sympathy. The I stop and I do not feel sorry for yourself.
I should live my life. That I do not care to be what others think. The
should I not say that I feel bad ..
but man! I'm doing totally bad.
Worse than ever before, and I'm so alone, more than I ever was's.
I will not ring with you, and I do it but
I do not want to think of you 'and I do it still.
I've tried myself to convince me that you're actually not as nice
that you're stupid and nothing to understand that we are not meant for each other
love with each of your mistakes' I you more.
You are so wonderfully arrogant, so wonderfully arrogant
all imagined good, for that, 'I appoint you king of my country
Considering that you lie constantly, you look damn innocent.
It is your nature, I can not be angry
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